Back In Court

I took another step towards normality on Friday by sitting in court for the first time since early July.

Ann didn’t say anything but I’m sure she thought it was a bit premature especially if it was a long day. In fact we did sit through until four o’clock which was quite long enough for me but I didn’t really start to tire until the bus home failed to turn up and I was stuck standing at the stop for half an hour.

I had gone fairly well prepared, however. I would normally have gone out at lunch time to buy a sandwich but instead took lunch with me so that I could, if necessary, find a quiet spot to have a short nap before the afternoon session. As things turned out that wasn’t necessary. I think I was a bit high on just being back that any risk of tiredness was kept at bay until I got home.

Oddly enough one of my two colleagues was also a cancer patient and was currently undergoing chemotherapy. He has been suffering from what began as cancer of the bowels some ten years ago but the disease has spread throughout his stomach and into his liver. Every now and again he undergoes several days of chemotherapy delivered through a tube into his chest from a tank worn on his belt.

I reckon he must be far tougher than me. When I heard about this and how he is carrying on with his life I felt a complete fraud having been as weak as I was during my treatment.