Am I being too hopeful?
I have noticed that my need for pain-killers has completely gone.
I do not spend my day worrying about not being too far from a toilet.
I routinely go for a couple of hours or more without the urgent need to urinate.
Over the last few nights I have had to go to the toilet only twice and last night it was only once.
My penis feels as it did before all this started with no tenderness or soreness.
Given that I have had frequent and painful urination for over two years and that my penis has itself been tender, sensitive and even painful for about a year this is quite a remarkable change. I think it is impossible not to assume that the chemotherapy is breaking up the cancer as I can’t see what else could cause such a wonderful improvement in my symptoms but despite my natural eagerness to assume that I am in full remission and close to the end of this nightmare I fear the verdict based on the evidence of the MRI scan on September 1st will show that there is enough of the damned thing left to make surgery the only safe option.
The more I hope the greater will be the disappointment if I get the “thumbs down”.
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